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For so many years of my life, I would watch myself make a social faux pas and be incapable of stopping the words from coming out of my mouth. Or I would realize by the dead silence after a comment that I'd done something very, very wrong. I'd agonize for hours, days, months, even YEARS afterwards, so frustrated by what I'd done and incapable of understanding what was broken in me that made me so different. I worried I was insane like my grandmother who recently died, who was institutionalized multiple times and tried to kill my dad and his siblings more than once. I was seriously concerned about being mentally defective.
Those little gaffes are much easier to deal with now that I know I have Asperger's. I can just say "oh, I had an Asperger's moment, I'll try and do better next time something like that happens" and for the most part, move on (or at least not die of embarassment). But for most of my life, having Asperger's and not knowing about it just made me terribly afraid of being crazy.
So I found it quite interesting to find out that Asperger's Syndrome is being removed from the upcoming version of The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, published by the American Psychiatric Association. Now I'm officially not crazy.
Life as an Aspergian Female
Asperger's and the Internet
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